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Covid -19? Where are we really? Besides Cabin Fever

Social Distancing? I am not sure . It can’t hurt but I don’t Think it is the answer .

I am one of those over 60, with cardiac, respiratory and three autoimmune diseases so I attempt to stay in a much s possible.

While I commend the steps being taken there have been pandemics in the past such as smallpox, measles, rubella, the lovely black ( bubonic plague0.

Due to disability #LadyGaga I have been stuck in my home for the past three years . Heaven help me if I leave my Bedroom at all the past several years

Just google pandemics . I tried to provide the links but they will not paste..

northjersey.com
Coronavirus Watch
THURSDAY, APRIL 9
Unemployment claims in New Jersey continue to climb, breaking the state’s record three weeks in a row.
So whether you are out of work or face reduced hours because of coronavirus, you’re not alone. Here are some resources to help:
If you need to apply for unemployment, here are detailed directions on how to file. And there are options if you find yourself out of work due to the coronavirus.
For small businesses looking to apply for relief programs, here’s our guide.
If you’re experiencing delays with getting your unemployment check processed, NJ’s 40-year-old system is likely to blame.
Governor Phil Murphy and Senator Corey Booker list
NJ coronavirus deaths rise to 1,700, cases at 51,027

How many people are hospitalized with coronavirus in NJ?

In New Jersey, more than 7,017 patients are hospitalized with coronavirus, Persichilli said. Of those patients, 1,651 are in intensive care units and 94 percent were on ventilators.

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How many people have died of coronavirus complications in NJ?

There have been 1,232 deaths related to coronavirus in New Jersey. Officials reported 232 new deaths.

Of the 1,232 statewide deaths as of Tuesday, 60% were male and 40% were female. One percent were less than 30 years of age, while 45% were over the age of 80. Of those who died, 44 percent had underlying medical conditions, Persichilli said.

The state also reported information on the race of those who died for the first time Monday. Of the statewide deaths 60% were white, 24% black, 5% Asian and 11% other, Persichilli said. The state will continue to make public those details, Murphy said

My thoughts and prayers to any one who has a family member suffering from this or who has lost a family member . I reside in the second most dangerous States ..NJ… The world here is essentially closed

 

Bless those in NY ,LA and NJ who have the highest death toll. This is my third day in bed , barely able to move

Please feel free to share your stories. I was alone before this ..other ‘s may be as well I mental wellness Physical wellnesshave not been feeling great . I sleep almost 24/7 the past several days. As much as my children do not care about me they were the best thing that ever happened to me

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When you Struggle with Alcohol and you don’t even like it

There are times you may struggle with Drinking alcoholic beverages even though you may not even like them . Apparently, this is a common concept amongst Battered Wives Syndrome Your children do not believe it ….why should they ? You rarely drank ..their father was a a drunk ..I remember those jokes which were not so much a joke to me .

so marry an alcoholic and you are well on your way

Lose what matters to you most due to resentment bitterness, injury

When I met my spouse and was informed that he wanted to date me …my response was ” I don’t date alcoholics ” which I have later amended to many a therapist …but apparently I will marry one …MY Drs know and have known for many years .

 

When you hit a certain age and all that matters to you is your children and grandchildren, downsizing  etc but your spouse is into nothing but bars , depravity , gambling . ..do my children even know or care what I have done to stay safe???? I don’t think so..nor quite frankly do I think they care..maybe 1 of 3 …I think one of three .

I have three blood grandchildren ..only one knows me and we had tons of fun together and I miss her every day …she will soon forget me because children do. My daughter has issues I can’t even begin to address . That is not carte blanche to hurt your children . Children should never be hurt. Ironically , it was the father of a step grandchild who has been the kindest to me …

 

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Trying to accept disability

I know that many have struggled with this and overcome it Six years have gone by and despite the 13 years spent in PT I think too damage has been done…

 

What bites you is that you have fought , long and hard ..that there are no bruises .It is all spinal cord related…a grab ..slamming on the brakes .It does not leave marks, just damage .

I worked out for 44 years . According to Drs had it not been for my physical fitness , prior and mental tenacity I should have been in a wheelchair 8 years ago and I continue to fight but I often why . My family does not care so I am alone in this . I cannot do anion of what I did three years ago.

 

I went through Heaven and Hell for my children but where have they been for me / Jeez just typing this exhausting ..my arms don’t really  function ..

 

Trying to come to acceptance is difficult …will take any advice