LILS I THANK YOU for all the happiness and fun that you brought into my life . There is not a day I don’t cry for the lack of you …
Four years ago Gsmmi was so damaged that I could no longer travel soI doubt that I will ever see you again…I was ever permitted to know your brother and sister ..
I pray for you every night ,my fairy Princess . Your parents chose to move you away from me …My own daughter did not care about me ..your father just has parental issues .
One day I hope that I am still alive, somewhat functional , and that you look for me. I miss PA so much ❤
The nightmares, the terrors the flashbacks that leave fingernail marks in my skin ….unforgettable
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Once an adventurous , slightly mischievous ..always golden hearted child Fast forward 30+ years ..bitter and resentful bitter lady( I don't like it either ) ..formerly kind and accommodating ..still and will always cherish children ...Life is not quite the ride you expect so I would like to believe in destiny as opposed to I made incorrect choices ...because I had brains, beauty , came from a well bred New York society background family , a ridiculous skill set etc so how did I end up where I am??? At Birth ..you can be given all the "gifts " that you desire ,a s I was ..I am intelligent (generally) ...I can cook , bake , refinish furniture , manage a business , craft ..etc etc ..If you YOU look in the mirror and you do not see what others may ..and I do not believe this is an uncommon phenomenon ..most beautiful women whose demeanors I have observed have appeared to be abused ..this I can spot a mile away ..it never matters what some one else see's ..what matters is what you see..which may be skewed and may need lead you in an alternate direction ..please contact me I am here to help anyone..anytime
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